while I'm waiting…

Do you believe God speaks to us in a lot of ways?

I do. And it amazes me at how He does it.

I haven’t been to church for a month now. Most times it’s because I’m just lazy. And I got excuses, like, it’s too hot to go outside, I have other things to do, I’m sick, blah blah. But anyway, I’m sure glad God doesn’t just exist in churches.

Anyway, this weekend was not eventful, for the most part, but I was able to watch a film that reminded me of my faith and how I have somehow neglected it.

I realized that what made me so… lonely, is that I sort of relied on people to make me happy. I have somehow “invested” my time and emotions on people who I know will not reciprocate the gesture, and I blamed it on my status, my son, my insecurities, that no one would come to make me happy.

Of course I am aware that happiness doesn’t have to come from things, or people. But I have forgotten that, or maybe I hoped that it was wrong, and that someday, I’ll “find” that thing or person who will make me feel complete.

Then I come across this film, the music, the message. I know that it’s not bad to hope and wait for that something or someone to come. But while I wait for it/him, it’s best to fill the space with God’s presence so He can lead me to where i’m supposed to be.

Music and song lyrics have such a big effect on me every time. And this season, my newest favorite is Corrine May, a Singaporean singer song writer based in LA.

All I can say is – wow. I mean come on, this is what music is about! I’ve been hearing a lot of new artists on the radio where all they talk about is sex, “love” (which has become another term for sex), bitterness and nonesense. And listening to Corrine May’s music has become a great break from the negatives out there. Can you believe song albums now have the word “sex” int its titles? Well, I do like sex as long as I’m the one doing it (hehe) but for it to be easily accessible to anyone of any age, I don’t know.

So anyway, this refreshing music had me smiling for two days now. I am glad that I share the same faith with Corrinne May, so I can relate to every song she wrote and performed. I highly suggest you check out her work.

Of course, I’m gonna give you a sampling of her music. These are some of my favorites (well, turns out all are my favorites, woohoo):

Save Me – the beat just makes me wanna sing out loud!

On the Side of Me – this is now officially “my song”

Angel in Disguise – oh gosh, love this one! For the angels in my life, I think this one deserves a separate blog entry.

Everything in its Time – ah, another reminder for me to never lose faith

Fly Away – soo emotional. It’s about letting go of someone very dear to you. Tearjerker.

If I Kissed You – hah. I would like to dedicate this song to my favorite guy. Wahaha! It’s a fun song for someone you’re crushing on haha.

All that I Need – ah, when I heard this, all I can say is. AMEN.

Scars – “cut away all within me that won’t bear fruit”, what more can i say?

If You Didn’t Love Me – Corrinne May’s winning piece (the musical arrangement, not the lyrics). I think I’m gonna suggest this song for a dear friend’s wedding. Sooo touching.

I hope her music will inspire you as much as it has inspired me! Gotta get that guitar string and start playing again! Whoops, but i cannot find guitar chords of Corrinne May’s songs. Help?